I have a hard time blogging while Jeopardy is on

It's baking night! Too bad I'm not as excited about it as I was last week. Valentine cupcakes and bite size brownies. I know you're jealous.

I really hate being alone. I'm alone right now, as I usually am whenever I'm at home. **Side note: my cat is sitting next to me turning her head at me (you know, like a dog does when its confused) to the point where she's almost falling over and she's drooling. DROOLING!** It's this moment when I really wish I had a bf to come keep me company and give me the attention I need. I mean, should it be this hard?? Eff. **okay, talk about easily distracted tonight! I just saw a commercial for "scalpicin" (I think is what its called, not quite worth the rewind to double check) but they're wipes to wipe your hair and ears and shit. That was the most disgusting thing I've seen since watching the 5 o'clock news when they showed poop on a bus.** You're probably thinking, well stop bitching and go out and meet people! (because thats what I'm thinking) but its really not that easy. When I go out and I'm not feeling confident, I'm ridiculously shy and can't make eye contact with anyone (umm hi, how old are you Coat?!) Then when I'm confident I'm just a bitch and there's no one good enough for me. Where's my happy medium?! Fuck. So with all this talk I must share with you that super hott Garrett (the UPS guy, keep up people!) has been on my route for the past two days and I've been as giddy as a school girl. So pathetic. He makes me so nervous I almost can't look at him...almost. He's so pretty I really can't stop staring at him. Ughhhhh. Why can't I find this with someone who feels the same back?? Does that even exist? Yes. Because I live in a fantasy land where anything can happen. Only it just hasn't yet. Boo.

So my list of "People I Could Live Without" is growing rapidly by the day. Is that bad? I don't care.

When I hear cars honking outside I automatically think they're honking at me as if I were the only person that lives around here. Is that selfish? Whatevs.

ok, I'm tired and I'm only half way done with my baking. Eff. So until next time.....I'm getting the fire extinguisher ready because my oven keeps popping and I think its gonna explode. Kisses.