Thank god. Although, actually it would be nice to have it as a second language so I can better understand the signals of being played. You know, like knowing Spanish and being a complete white girl. Then when you come in contact with a bunch of shit talking Latina's you secretly know what they're saying and can either play it cool and just know what's up or you can throw a comment right back at them and watch their faces go white and hit the floor :) I've always wanted to do that, its on my bucket list.
**DISCLAIMER** I would just like to apologize ahead of time for the repeated use of the word "fuck" in the following post. It's the only way to get my point across :/
So the guy I was gushing about in my previous post, "cupcake", yeah he's fluent in Douche Bag. I was oblivious and fell for it all. I know I said I knew I was being played, but really, it all came too late. I should have listened to everyone from the beginning, but I honestly didn't see it. That's what I get for being optimistic. So you remember how I said I felt totally comfortable around him and could tell him anything? Apparently that's his bait. He even made the comment that he knew I trusted him (which, calm down dude, I don’t trust people very easily. Just because I told you something that I don’t tell many people doesn’t mean I trust you, it just means I had a weak moment ;)) and this is where fluent douche bag kicks in because if you knew someone trusted you, why would you fuck with them? I guess I really AM that naive. {OH! and he wonders why he only attracts "crazy girls"? Umm HELLO!!! They're crazy because you make them that way! You fuck with their head by reeling them in with saying all the right things and then fuck them over. I swear, boys are so stupid sometimes.} Anyway, I was honest with how I felt aaaaaaand now he won’t talk to me. Seriously?...like, really?! People do that?! Laaaaaame. So much for being honest. I guess I am good people and don’t even know how to mess with other people’s head. So why am I only attracted to these fuckers? Why can’t I find the ones who think like me? Whaaaateverrrrrrrr. You live, you learn!!
So I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m just destined to be single—for now. As much as I would really love to have a bf right now, I’m really not looking for my forever. I just don’t want to be alone. I want someone to talk to, who likes me for me, and is interested in what I have to say/do. Oh, and wants to spend time with me, duh. :) What can I say, I'm a hopeless romantic at heart and according to my psychic my whole being is revolved around love. Makes total sense. But really, deep down, I think I’ve only been attracted to the bad ones because I truly don’t want to be in a relationship at the moment. I just want to figure out who I am, what makes me happy and what I want out of life. See, I do learn a lot from my therapist! Unfortunately, I’m the type of person that has to pay for this free self exploring advice that I could probably get from my friends….whatev, don’t judge.
I know you love reading all this juiciness to get to know the real Coat and what truly is on her mind (and yes, I did just refer to myself in third person).....otherwise you wouldn't be reading this, would you? So until next time....I'll be soul-searching :) kisses!! xoxo
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