So I have been informed that I am not self prescribed ADD, I am self diagnosed ADD...same thing right? Whatevs. First up, my bestie Ciera is ENGAGED!!!!! Woo-hoo!! I'm soooo excited for her and Tyler! It took me a few days for it to process, probably because she is the first of my bestie's to get engaged. That or I really only think about myself. Andandand she wants ME to be in the wedding!! How cool is that?! I know. Now I gotta find a date....shit. Oh and naturally, her ring is BEAUTIFUL!! Perfect size and yes, size DOES matter (in more ways than one...) I'm so happy for them...but naturally it makes me feel like a loser because I can't even find an effing boyfriend. Whatever.
I just got the news that another bestie of mine Sara also got engaged this morning!!! Yayy!! I'm so excited for her and Nick...they've been on and off since freshman year of high school (quick math, 10 years) and its great to hear that they are now officially going to spend the rest of their lives together. Once again, I can't even find a boyfriend, let alone the person I'm going to spend the rest of my life with! As excited as I am for both of my besties, I really can't handle another engagement right now. Maybe next year. Ha.
Oh, so Ciera introduced me to a new alcoholic beverage! Basically its me wrapped up in a bottle! It's pink, sparkly and vodka...enough said. So I had it last night and it was amazing. I'm in love. We opened presents this morning at my moms and I got 4 bottles of vodka, 3 of which are Grey Goose in 3 different sizes. Fabulous. AND I got a crockpot! Sooo excited! Last night was Christmas at the Ferro's. So fun, I had a great time. Until the end when my sister made a completely uncalled for comment and I wanted to throw my pump at her face. But what's new right? I don't even know why I bother to make small talk with her. So being upset with that and already crying I decided (whether it was the right time or not) to tell Jason just how I really feel about things between me and him. He wasn't happy but I don't really care. I'm tired of being upset with him all the time. I called him on all his bullshit and in the typical Jason way he denied it all (sounds familiar right? *coughcrystlecough*) I'm not sorry for anything I said to him. My heart was hurting so bad I was having a complete meltdown. The kind where you're crying so hard you can't breathe and all you want to do is scream, which I did, into a pillow. I screamed so hard that my throat hurts today. My eyes were so puffy this morning it was ridiculous. I'm so tired of my heart hurting all the time from either him or my sister. Sometimes I really hate that I care so much. But that's just who I am. Okay, enough of this blah blah its bringing me down!
I know I said I was going to talk about social networking but I don't feel like it anymore...maybe another time. Oh but NYE me and my boo (Chase) were going to get dressed up, go out for dinner and drinks and then drink even more at my place but now I find out he has to open the next day. Really!?!?!! *heavy sigh* Stupid people and their dependency on starbucks at 5 in the morning ruins my plans! Oh well, whatever we end up doing I'm sure we will have a blast because we always have a blast together.
Hate to make this end so soon but now I have to go get ready to go to my dad's. So until next time...I'm DEFINITELY going to have a cocktail ;) Merry Christmas! kisses!
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